I was all geared up to write an amazing blog on peace. I had a vision of what it was going to look and sound like. I typed away, I deleted. I typed again, I deleted. I exited out and saved it for later. I began again, I deleted. I had nothing. I was completely blank. That is very unlike me. I am never at a loss for words – ever.
When I began this blog, thoughts flowed through me at such an incredible pace, I was thankful remembering that I was once clocked at typing 98 wpm so I knew my fingers were able to keep up with my mind. I created lists that contained lists within them of all the things I wanted to share my perspective on. It was an explosion of information and thoughts.
But not recently. I had nothing. I was all tapped out. And I know exactly why. My mind is not and has not been at peace due to some outside influences which have been sent to distract me. I haven’t been in the His word, I am not seeking His wisdom and my head has been filled with Satan’s lies and confusion. Satan knows my greatest goal is raising Godly children, having a Godly marriage, and living a life in obedience to God’s word. He knows that I know that if I do these things, God will provide all my blessings, including true peace. He’s thrown many things at us in the past 10 years and now he’s using yet another tactic to tear our family apart in the hopes we will just give up and give in to his dark kingdom.
For God is not a God of confusion but of peace.
….when he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies.
A great friend of mine always told me that when she gave me advice, it didn’t come from her but from the Holy Spirit. I was so thankful to have her give me truth in love and turn my thinking around. I admired her for giving credit to the Holy Spirit for her anointed words and they helped changed my life during some very difficult times. She was truly sent by God for my healing. As I’ve grown closer to God, surrendered to His will, meditated and sought wisdom from His word, I have also felt this anointing, mostly when speaking to my family or my closest friends. I don’t feel as comfortable sharing such deep and intimate wisdom with others who may not be ready to receive nor willing. But I feel that it is my role as a mother and wife to feed my family wisdom through God’s word. Many times, I stop and realize that I am being led by God with my words and am in awe of the wisdom that comes out of my mouth. This is not a prideful moment of me knowing it all, but it is a revelation of God guiding me with His wisdom. This wisdom that flows through me has proven to be real and true resulting in my children walking in truth and our family and my marriage remaining solid and whole despite everything sent to tear it apart.
Spiritual warfare is real and has been attacking our family for nearly 10+ years. It is an unseen entity that tries to infiltrate a happy home, filled with love, unity, and righteousness and tries to destroy it through disease, turmoil, emotional pain, and people. I have seen it happen to my family and thankfully, we are a strong, convicted family and, by the grace of God, we continue to survive Satan’s attacks. If we didn’t live in obedience and surrender to Him, this wouldn’t be the case. I’ve watched it destroy families who are not as solid in their convictions and their obedience to God and they are left with nothing but devastation.
If we let it, it can and it will consume us too. We are never to be arrogant enough to think it can’t happen to us. Therefore, we must stand firm in our obedience to God. We must be humble to know that we all can fail but we must resist the temptation of Satan’s suggestions to participate in anything that is not of God. We know better. Satan knows he cannot get to my children, my marriage, and my family, so he is doing everything he can and will use the spiritually weak to attack the spiritually strong on a continual basis. They are simply pawns in Satan’s game and are unaware of the stronghold he has over them and the deception they are under. All we can do is pray for their deliverance and only God can do that.
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you
I had written all these wonderful adjectives describing peace: serenity, tranquility, contentment, etc. in my first attempt to write a blog on peace. While I completely agree that those adjectives contribute to my definition of what true peace is, they are only attainable under normal circumstances. I must learn to submit and surrender to God and understand that, at times, peace is the acceptance of an outcome you did not desire in a difficult situation.
This began as a blog on writers block. I guess I just wrote a blog on peace….without me even knowing it. Thank you, Holy Spirit.
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.